So I've been in Pasadena, CA for a little over two weeks now. I think I'm slowly beginning to assimilate. At first the thought of living 2,000 miles away from everything and everyone I loved terrified me to death, but now I'm starting to accept that this is my new life. I'm experiencing a completely new culture. Somehow I knew that I would love California. Maybe it's the consistently beautiful weather. Maybe it's the endless opportunities to try something new. I don't feel quite at home yet, but I can see Pasadena being my home for the next few years (not that I have much of a choice in the matter).
I am ready for this new chapter of my life to begin. The pen is in my own hands. The next 5 years will be whatever I make of them. It might not always be an exciting story, but it's mine. The last chapter had so many great adventures that I'm not sure how this one is going to compare, but I'm optimistic. Okay, enough with the cheesy metaphors.
5 things I love about LA:
There is always something to do
I am meeting a lot of great people
There is so much culture
Pasadena is beautiful
I'm in grad school
5 things I hate about LA:
The traffic
My friends are too far away
It's expensive
Smog
I'm in grad school.
Grad school is a beast, a terrifying one at that. It's going to be a long 5 years and I pray to God that I can do this. My cohort is amazing and full of incredibly intelligent individuals. There's nothing more humbling than realizing that everyone around you has more experience than you. I know that this program is going to change me as a person, I just hope that it's for the better. I pray that I'm strong enough to get through this program and that I can resist the temptation to doubt myself and let the anxiety consume me. I know that this is where I need to be. This is where I'm called to. God wouldn't open this path for me if it wasn't the road I was to take. Even if things don't work out the way that I envision them, there is comfort in knowing that God has placed me here at this time for some purpose.
I feel like Viktor Frankl's Man's Search for Meaning is an appropriate text to apply to my life right now. There is comfort in knowing that there is meaning in all things. So long as I can maintain a sense of purpose for life, I can make it through any circumstance. My success in this program does not determine who I am as a person. My identity comes from who I am in Christ. So long as I strive to love others and seek the Kingdom of God, I am on the right path.
And the journey continues...